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Η Μαύρη Καραμέλα τρώει την Κόκκινη Καραμέλα με Γεύση Γλυκόριζας (short story)

The following story is a work of fiction and bears no relation to existing people or events.

Του λέω διάβασε αυτό και θα καταλάβεις τί έχω πάθει. Έχω ερωτευτεί ένα αγόρι που θέλει να είναι κορίτσι και θέλει και να γαμεί κοριτσάκια σαν κορίτσι. Βρε πάλι τα ίδια, μου λες. Ναι, πάλι τα ίδια. Πάλι Αμερικανός; Ναι πάλι γαμώτο μου. Πάλι φιλόσοφος; Ναι πάλι. Πάλι σκηνοθέτης; Πάλι. Πάλι με φούστες και μέικαπ; Πάλι. Πάλι πισωγλέντης; Πάλι. Hell, if fucking history didn’t repeat itself there would be no such thing as thrusting rhythm. Του έριξα μια μαχαίρια, μάλλον μερικές, μάλλον παραπάνω από ότι έπρεπε γιατί δεν άντεχα. Αυτός απλώς έβγαλε το μαχαίρι από εκεί που το είχα καρφώσει και με κάρφωσε εδώ στο κούτελο. Από τότε κρυφοκοιταζόμαστε και βλέπουμε η μια την άλλην να χύνει αίμα. Πάω εγώ από εκεί, έρχεται αυτός από εδώ. Εδώ είναι αυτήν την στιγμή και αναρωτιέται τί λέμε. But I feel guilty, and I am afraid and ashamed, και για αυτό δεν τον αφήνω να διαβάσει αυτά που λέμε στην γλώσσα του. Με είχε βάλει πάνω στην γλώσσα του πριν μερικές μέρες. Λέει πως θέλει να με ρουφάει σαν μαύρη καραμέλα με γεύση γλυκόριζα. Πως η γεύση μου του θυμίζει το αψέντι και πως θέλει να με ξαναδοκιμάσει, και μάλιστα μπροστά σε όλο τον κόσμο. Θα φρίκαρα και θα ντρεπόμουνα πολύ αν το έκανε αυτό. Εγώ όλα αυτά τα γράφω γιατί δεν ξέρω τι άλλο να κάνω. Αλλά ξέρω πως έχει γαντζωθεί μέσα μου. Και όταν διαβάζω πως είναι μόνος με την τρέλα του θέλω να τον πάρω και να τον παρηγορήσω αλλά ο φόβος μου έχει κόψει τα χέρια και την γλώσσα. “Ναταλίτσα μου είσαι το πιο όμορφο κορίτσι που έχω δει ποτέ και υποφέρω να σε βλέπω να πονάς μοναχούλι και να πνιγείς την μοναξιά σου με τον μόνο έρωτα σου.”. Λόγια που δεν θα με ακούσει να λέω ποτέ. Δεν μιλάει κανένας στην τρέλα μου. Ούτε εγώ της μιλάω για να μην την ακούω να μου λέει τα παράπονα της. Μόνο αυτή ξυπνάει την τρέλα που προσπάθησα να θάψω μέσα μου. I am constantly seconds between whispering to you, αλλά στην πραγματικότητα ποτέ δεν θα ακούσεις ούτε μια λέξη δικιά μου στο αυτή σου. Της αρέσουν μόνο οι μάγισσες και το πιοτό, και έτσι χθες που πάλι την κρυφοκοιτούσα και την είδα που ήταν μόνη, της έστειλα μάγισσες και ένα κοκτέιλ από τον παλιό καιρό. Δώρα που ποτέ δεν θα λάβει. Την σκέφτομαι έτσι μόνη και και μεθυσμένη, την λυπάμαι περισσότερο από ότι λυπάμαι τον εαυτό μου και φαντάζομαι γατούλες και κορίτσια να κουλουριάζουν στα ατελείωτα πόδια της με τα νύχια τον ποδιών βαμένα κόκκινα. Ναταλίτσα μόνη.

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Στην μπανιέρα δύο, τρεις, τέσσερις… Let’s think of ways I can end up in the bath (short story)

The following story is a work of fiction and bears no relation to existing people or events.

Καημένη Ναταλίτσα μου, μου λες τώρα πως μπεκρουλιάζεις μόνη κάθε βράδυ, πουλάκι μου; “Don’t say that in Greek!”, she complains to me, “I want to read what you are saying!”. Fuck what I’m saying. Τόσα χρόνια Σωκράτη και Πλάτων και Ελληνικά δεν μου έμαθες ρε φιλόσοφε. Κινέζικα, Γιαπωνέζικα, Γερμανικά, Ισπανικά και Εβραϊκά. Που πήγανε οι μοναχικές γατολατρης της Βαλτιμόρης που τους κρατούσες ζεστασιά κάθε βράδυ; Έχω το τηλέφωνο σου εδώ, μα γιατί δεν σε παίρνω τηλέφωνο να σου κάνω παρέα, έστω κι εγώ κακιά παρέα;! Γιατί όπως είπα και πριν, ο φόβος είναι το χειρότερο ναρκωτικό, χειρότερο και από το πιοτό. Σε φοβάμαι και σε λυπαμαι, Ναταλίτσα μου, και για αυτό θα σε βάλω σε μια παρτουζα σήμερα το βράδυ, by the power of cinema. Ευτυχώς το Google Translate δεν έχει μάθει ακόμα πως η λέξη παρτουζα σημαίνει threesome, οπότε μπορώ να το γράψω χωρίς να ντρέπομαι πως θα το διαβάσεις αργότερα εκεί και θα με παρεξηγήσεις για το θράσος μου. Ένα νεκρό κορίτσι στο άσπρο φέρετρο της μου ψιθύρισε χθες το βράδυ from the hivemind όπου ακούγεται ακόμα η φωνή της: “Μου αρέσει ο Λιντς, ο Κρόνενμπεργκ – οι Διχασμένοι είναι από τις αγαπημένες μου ταινίες.”. Μόνο αυτό χρειαζόμουνα για αφορμή. Τώρα έχω εδώ τους Διχασμένους μαζί μου παρέα. Γιατί μας είπες πόσο σημαντική είναι αυτή η ταινία για το έργο σου, και μιας και λαχταρώ να καταλάβω την τρέλα σου θα την μελετήσω. In return I want this to keep you company. Ναι, ναι, θα σε πάρουνε όλοι αυτοί από τον κώλο αγαπούλα μου, αφού ξέρω πόσο σου αρέσει από τον κώλο, μας τα είπες όλα στο Livestream, τα είπαμε αυτά. The girl inside of you is a witch that walks amongst witches. Θα σου δείξω λοιπόν μαγισσες όπως δεν τις έχεις ξαναδεί. Πάντα δεν ήθελες να δείς Διονυσιακές Μαινάδες; “Apollonian by day, Dionysian by night”, και τέτοιες μαλακίες; Ε λοιπόν, σήμερα θα τις δεις. Σου εύχομαι να βρεις σύντομα τέτοιες μάγισσες στην μπανιέρα σου, και μακάρι να γίνεις και εσύ μια από αυτές.

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3:03:31 It’s not like you people haven’t seen me in the bath before, like, OMG! Like, it’s not exactly a major scandal. Seeing that basically, every Gawddamned Youtube video I do ends with me in the bath. My entire Youtube channel is basically, “Let’s think of ways I can end up in the bath”. Am I a bath person in real life? Hell yeah. I take baths all the time. My videos are not that different from my actual life, you know. There is a reason why my videos always end up with me with classical music in the bath. And that is that I spend a lot of time listening to classical music in the bath.”

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The Americanization of Natalie

“Just perfume and liquor, perhaps so, but we haven’t managed a Hitler or Mussolini yet.”

Πως ξορκίζουμε το φασιστοποίημενο Γρύλισμα

 

“Sometimes people claim that they hear Lieberman speaking from within me, but I think they exaggerate. The fact that I was raised to love and adopt these views doesn’t mean that he is literally within me. Νο. I do not feel that Lieberman inhabits my body.”

“As preparation for the exorcism I’ve researched Lieberman thoroughly because you cannot approach an exorcism with negative feelings only. You have to be able to identify with the demon, to find empathy towards him so that you’ll detect the tricks he is employing and seduce him to leave the body. This cannot work through power alone. Affection and empathy to the demon must also be at work. It’s very easy to use him and present him as the fascist, as this destructive drive, so that the rest of us will be presented as sane. As if life in Israel is normal except for those few Liebermans. My main problem as an exorcist is that Lieberman is a very evasive demon. He goes out of one body and enters another. He resides, in fact, at the heart of our collective body. That’s why each time he can be found inside a different surrogate. I hope that armed with this insight that Lieberman is not the demon, but only one of its incarnations and that the real demon belongs to us all, perhaps I’ll succeed in fighting it where others have failed.”

“How do I feel about the possibility that Lieberman will be expelled from within me? I am against it. I feel he is part of me. His opinions ripened inside me, like a baby growing in its mother’s belly. In this sense ripping Lieberman from me is a little like performing an abortion with a hanger. It’s scraping parts of me so that he will come out.”

#αιμορραγείς #γεμάτη τύψεις

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When you hear that song in the background at the beginning here, and you know you’ve heard it before.

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REBLOGGED: “Are you a little clearer on why so many women get scared away from STEM?” ->

Girl Anachronism

I’ve been having a number of conversations about that stupid “Google Manifestbro” that has been making the rounds, and it’s brought up a lot of memories of all of the personal stories I have about workplace misogyny that I thought I would share. I usually prefer to talk about social justice issues in terms of scientific studies and statistics, but maybe that’s the wrong approach – anecdotes seem to stick in people’s minds more than dry logic.

It’s no secret that STEM is a huge boys’ club, and there are some serious drawbacks that come with being a woman in that environment. Between my engineering degree, two years of working in an engineering department of a manufacturing plant, and 20+ years in software, my skin has become so thick that I’m nearly bulletproof.

Nearly.

Some things do still get to me.

I have had to deal…

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Now, my challenge to the rapey Greek film industry is still open:
name ONE Greek film where a man gets raped by a man.
There is none. Man-on-man rape is so taboo in Greece that Greek filmmakers can’t even begin to visualize a man getting raped on screen instead of a woman.

 

It’s important that Lewis uses the word “rape” not because it foretells Bobby’s rape but because it shows how cavalier men are in using the language of one of the worst things that can happen to a person but is predominantly only likely to happen to women; he uses it to signify that something beautiful will become tainted. And that type of language use can even imply that a victim of rape makes someone worthless to society, i.e. victim shaming, something that ‘s inherent in the lower percentage reports of rapes vs. the number of men and women who actually are raped. Victims don’t want to face accusatory words or have their behavior analyzed down to every minute detail in order to ascertain whether or not sex was coerced. I can feel some of our readers rolling their eyes, but men freely use that word out of context because their gender doesn’t have the innate context of what it feels like to be statistically likely to be raped and thus adding protection measures to numerous situations in which it would feel foreign for a man to protect himself from unwanted sexual attention.

The river trip and Lewis’ description of it is a perfect vessel for analyzing manhood because the river pushes the men via a “wild and untamed” force. Not only does it test the men’s resolve but it enhances their feeling of freedom; much like men can wander the streets drunk and alone at night, and though they might be on edge or aware of others who might want to fight or rob them, sexual assault is not on their mind like it would more likely be for a woman in that same scenario.

(To be safe, perhaps this is where I should mention that I myself was sexually abused as a youth, but even despite living through that I do not feel unsafe in many scenarios that a woman would start to feel unsafe or at least acutely aware of her surroundings; and though sexual violence is also established to be more frequent than our data shows for boys and men, without speaking for everyone, I do think that most male survivors would say that their gender affords them a privilege in many situations to not feel unsafe.)

Sexual assault being the last thought of what could go wrong for a man in a situation is very important for Deliverance.

And that’s when he’s taken back into the woods by gunpoint, forced to strip, and Ed is tied to a tree forced to watch, as it does escalate to rape because Bobby complies with each demand thinking that the alternative would be death.

The shocking rape scene in Deliverance has made many men wonder why it happens. It’s important to note that in the more frequent rape scenes of women the motives of the man aren’t questioned. We don’t condone it, but we accept that it happens, and most don’t need to know extra motivation. John Boorman introduces the rapist the same way that many films have always introduced a rape scene involving a man and woman: as a stranger who simply emerges, commits a horrific act, and then vanishes. For decades of storytelling, writers and directors felt no need to add motivation to that scenario, it’s just accepted that that’s a threat. And that’s how Boorman sets up this scene and it’s ingenious because it should force men to grapple with why this movie is so uncomfortable for them but perhaps so easy to accept and not question a rape scene involving a woman. It also essentially plays out the sickening “she was asking for it” argument equivalent with another man substituted for a woman. Bobby’s simple bootlegging comment shifted the whole situation into something where the mountain man felt he needed to show his power and superiority over him. And of course a man in the audience will think that is wrong and can hopefully make the leap to all “asking for it” defenses are disgustingly wrong.

Deliverance should be something that, if they aren’t there already, puts men in a victim’s shoes, simply by being another man, and teaches them that it is the most debasing thing that a human can do to another human.

http://collider.com/deliverance-rape-scene-explained/?utm_source=facebook&utm_medium=social&utm_campaign=collidersocial#interview

DOING IT RIGHT: Tom Delonge, former Blink-182 singer, has become a fellow pedo hunter! Woohoo! Welcome to the club Tom! Making the world a better place! -> http://pagesix.com/2017/08/02/former-blink-182-singer-tracked-down-alleged-sexual-predators/

That’s how you take care of pedosickos -> https://www.yahoo.com/news/m/f98a282e-05d4-3a57-86cf-0b3b13eeb389/ss_former-blink-182-singer.html Thank you Tom Delonge!

“THESE A—WIPES ARE GOING TO JAIL FOR TRYING TO [KIDNAP] A 15-YEAR-OLD GIRL 48 HOURS AGO,” Delonge, 41, wrote on Facebook.